All too often my thoughts drift in the wrong direction and take me down the path of negativity and doubt. I don’t understand why I keep falling into this same old pattern. I need to shift my thoughts to His thoughts rather than mine. How do I truly take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ? I know that He has not given me a spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7). But if I truly believed this I wouldn’t keep giving Him areas and then taking them back. All too often I turn things over to Him only to get in His way a short time later. I desperately need to start standing on the Word of God and not allow myself to caught in the web of deception.
The key is balance. Last year I was sheltered in my "recovery bubble." Now that I'm venturing out again, I struggle with balance. I know that I cannot allow myself to get distracted in the business of life, my relationship with my Savior must come first. I have found myself back in place where serving has become too much of a priority. I need to find the proper balance in this area too. I cannot do this on my own, and I don't want to try living life on empty again. So today I'm stepping back a little and making sure that I'm taking time to refuel.