Day 49: I feel hopeless and have felt this way for quite sometime. I tried to reason with myself. I had to accept that business and stress were part of this season of life and I would have to face them on my own. My hubby was busy trying to rebuild after a major career change. This wasn't something we expected & truly caught us both off guard. I tried to manage everything to the best of my ability, but always fell short of my expectations. I turned to wine, not for hope, but to ease the pain & loneliness. In reality, this was only for a moment that I found hope, this temporary fix caused me to fall deeper into the pit of depression. Thus the cycle began, I needed just 1 more glass to ease the pain.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Step 1: I am on the Road to Recovery
Day 35. I'm moving forward on my road to recovery. This song marks the beginning, I just wish that I felt as upbeat as this song. I'm broken, and not sure that I'm going to make it very far. I've been in denial for so long. I really thought I could quit any time,but I kept coming back for just one more glass. I'm trying to trust God along this scary journey that lies ahead. This morning I inquired about a Step Study and found out that one began tonight. I trembled as I walked into that room, for I knew no one. But tonight I began my Celebrate Recovery Step Study.
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