With all that has happened, I know that I'm not able to have just 1 glass, and drinking will no longer be an option. But why is that easier said than done? Why are the cravings so great? This move made me realize that I'm weak, and not as far a long in my recovery as I thought. Luckily, I'm aware of my feelings, triggers, and have a great support team. Every time that I had to make the short drive from the old home to the new home, I called one of my accountability partners. My desire to drink was so great, that I didn't trust my self not to stop and buy a bottle of wine.
I've come to realize that I cannot do this on my own. God has placed some great women in my life that are there to hold me up, when I'm weak. It's o.k. to ask for help (another thing that I've never been good at), that's what they are there for. I also know that I need the help of a Savior, my Savior. I'm learning to surrender all of me, all of my dreams, and all that I have to God. I want to truly die to myself so that I may live in Him, that He may bring me back to life.
- Principle 3: Consciously choose to commit all of my life & will to Christ’s care and control. "Happy are the meek." (Matthew 5:5)
- Step 3: I made a decision to turn my life and my will (that's the challenging part for me) over to the care of God. "Therefore, I urge you brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy & pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. (Romans 12:1
Prayer of an Addict
"Something has a hold of me. There's a thorn in my flesh, I can't get it out.
My
flesh has a thirsty desire, but Lord it consumes me like fire.
Feel me with the water you give. So I'll never thirst again.
The drink of this world is tearing me down.
Feel me with the water you give. So I'll never thirst again.
The drink of this world is tearing me down.
I'm willing to turn away,
but I need your strength each and every day.
Father above please hear my prayer.
This drink has imprisoned me.
The shackles are tight, and they won't let go.
A thirst never ending."
but I need your strength each and every day.
Father above please hear my prayer.
This drink has imprisoned me.
The shackles are tight, and they won't let go.
A thirst never ending."
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