There are so many positive changes that have come from my recovery journey. It began with restoration and the returning of the joy of my salvation. The miracle came when I was finally able to forgive myself. All of the guilt, fear, and shame were gone.
So much of my life and ministry were pruned away. There was a season of grieving, a season of healing, and now I'm seeing the season of restoration and regrowth. The new growth has been beautiful, but it takes time for growth to occur. My new life looks so different than the life I once had, the life I thought I wanted. I feel so much stronger, just like scar tissue is stronger than the skin around it. Along with new strength is a sense of peace, a peace I've never known.
I'm learning to turn things over to God and to truly let go. I"m also learning that I don't have to hide behind my mask - that "perfect image" I've worked so hard to maintain. Jesus was made perfect so that I don't have to be.
My life is no longer focused on me and is no longer defined by the mistakes I've made. It's about the grace and unconditional, never giving up love of my Savior, & how He was willing to do whatever it took to rescue me.
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