The thing that concerns me is that I seem to be following the same pattern when it comes to my walk in Christ. 2012 is a year that I have set aside to regroup, focus on my recovery, and get back to the basics in my relationship with God. This has been a year of respite, refocus, and devotion. I have grown so much and let go of all the baggage that I was trying to hang on to. I’m learning to trust God and no longer try to control things on my own. Sounds great, but I’m realizing that when I’m focused, being responsible, and doing well on my recovery, I’m also having great quiet times. But when I get lazy, like the past few days, I tend to get lazy with my devotion time. I’ve still been reading my Bible but not with the same level commitment. It seems that the attitudes that I carry in my daily life are the same ones that I have towards my spiritual relationship.
I want to be zealous for God. “Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord” (Romans 12:11). The thing is, if I am truly zealous for him I cannot be focusing on myself or things of the world. I want to maintain a strong zeal and desire to accomplish God’s will and live according to His Purpose. May I be a woman after God’s own heart.
After God's Own Heart (Kim Boyce)
I relate to this post so much! For me it helps to keep on keeping on when I feel lazy in my spiritual walk. Even if my mind wanders a million times when I'm in my quite time I still keep trying. That's not what I did before recovery. If I could not concentrate I just gave up...maybe that was the perfectionist in me...if I couldn't have the perfect quiet time with my heavenly father why bother!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing with all of us-
Rochelle