In the words of Paul, “For even though the desire to do good is in me, I am not able to do it. 19 I don't do the good I want to do; instead, I do the evil that I do not want to do” (Romans 7: 18-19 GNT). I now realize that I am powerless to control my tendency to do the wrong thing. My power is limited to living one day at a time as I surrender to God. Though I have the desire to control or fix my life, I need the help of my Savior to help me rise above the messiness I created trying to do life on my own.
So many areas of my life are out of control.
1. My eating habits - I over eat & hate myself afterwards. The uncontrollable urges to binge and purge came out of nowhere, and caught me off guard as I recently relapsed in my eating disorder.
2. My thought life – My mind obsesses on negative thoughts about myself and feelings of inferiority. I also need to leave behind my judgmental attitudes and self-centeredness so that I can effectively share my life with others.
3. Perfectionism – I have the need to masquerade through life as super mom as I attempt to maintain the perfect image. I struggle with transparency about the not so pretty parts of my life.
In my first Celebrate Recovery step study I dealt with my addictions. Now I’m ready to take this journey again to move beyond these unhealthy character traits. By taking this step, I’m stepping out of denial. I already have an awesome support team that is holding me accountable and encouraging me as I move forward. As I truly surrender every area to God, I will experience healing and eventually victory.
- Principle 1: Realize I'm not God. I admit that I am powerless to control my tendency to do the wrong things and that my life is unmanageable. "Happy are those who know they are spiritually poor." ( Matthew 5:3
- Step 1: I admit that I am powerless over my addiction and compulsive behavior, that my life had become unmanageable. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to what is good. but I cannot carry it out. (Romans 7:18)
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Great song! I love Whitney :)
ReplyDeleteI feel powerless and out of today at work. That is one area of my life where I struggle with the notion of control. I seem to swing to extremes- being a door mat one day and a control freak the next.
Trying to find balance!
I always love your posts, Hope!
Rochelle