The word of the month for me
is awareness. At this time I’m
re-evaluating all relationships and distractions. The distractions for me are clear cut. It saddens me to think of the countless
hours I’ve wasted playing games on Facebook.
I love games, but some of them truly drew me in. There is nothing wrong with entertainment,
but when it overtakes your thoughts, time, and actions, I think that could be
classified as an addiction. It was
fun. It helped me get my mind off of the
storm that surrounds me. I’m no longer focusing
on the storm or mourning the losses. So today I deleted my
café, my farm, and the people that I know only through those games. I will
admit that there was something freeing about deleting all of these
distractions.
I believe that true accountability starts now,
as I’m rounding the homestretch of my step study. It's easy to say
focused when you are literally working the steps in homework. “People inspire you or they drain you. Pick
them wisely.” (Hans Hansen). I ran on
empty for too long, and realize that I must surround myself with people that
challenge me to be better, people that are going in the same direction as me,
and people that are not going to drain me dry.
The fact of the matter,
storms cause damage. We must put things
in perspective as we assess the damage. I have discovered a few leaks in
relationships, and am making the necessary repairs - setting boundaries. Other damage is so extensive that repairs are
not an option – the relationship must be replaced.
I'm assessing my
relationships, making sure that I have solid support before I move up in CR leadership.
I thought proper support was in place, but two of my accountability partners
kind of fizzled out. I’m thankful that I'm aware of this change,
and able to replace them, before another storm hits and before I take on more
responsibility. I honestly believe that the devil attacks those that are
making a difference harder than those that are only taking care of themselves. “Be
self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring
lion looking for someone to devour”(1 Peter 5:8).
I want to share with you a
portion of blog that I read today.
I
remember when a hurricane came through a beach community many years ago. When
people went to look at the damage some of the houses had been flattened and
some were standing as though nothing had happened. Someone asked, “Why did
those houses continue to stand and suffer no damage and all the houses around
it were totally destroyed?” The answer that was given was that the houses that
stood, stood due to the fact they were built by a higher standard the city had
required at the time. The other houses were not built by that standard because
the city changed the standards and downgraded them. Because of that those homes
did not make it through the storm!
The devil caught me at my
weakest moment and I fell hard. I was one of those houses, with
portions built on lower standards. But please don't over look all the houses
that fell. For mine was built on a solid foundation. I
am being remade & restored. And this time, I have a disaster plan in
place. I cannot control the storms that come my way, but I can make the
necessary preparations for those storms.
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